Sunglasses are a reasonable alternative to blindness

It seems I haven't updated my blog since Blogger has changed it's layout. Which is fine with me, but I'm a curmudgeon when it comes to change that I don't approve of. But isn't everyone? I suppose so.

Speaking of change, there will be a very big change occurring in my life. I will write in more detail about this soon. It's hard to say whether I'm more excited or nervous at this point. Certainly relieved. Again, more on this later. I'll save you all the time and effort and make a joke about this now "Later, like next April?" re: How often I [don't] update my blog.

I've been feeling very very down lately, but I've been chronicling it more in my private friends only journal. There's certain things I don't feel the need to address to the public, but it is therapeutic to write in some sort of forum, albeit very small and private. This has in part to do with how ill I've been feeling lately, but a lot of other things as well.

Goals for the summer

-Join a gym. I don't need a scale to tell me I've gained a little weight. Although the scale will, in fact, tell me that.
-Train for a 5k. Which I will hopefully eventually end up running.
-Work a lot. (This is really not so much a goal as it is my money making plan, but it somehow seems productive to include it on this list.)
-Read more. Though this plan includes reading The Hunger Games, I hope that it will extend beyond that.
-Eat better food/eat less food. Ever since working in a restaurant/dating a chef, I've been all too careless about what I've been eating (see: Join gym). Although I've started cooking for myself a lot more, and I only ever cook healthy foods for myself, I've stopped doing this so much in the past month or two, because the kitchen in my apartment is both small, and in a constant state of messiness that I'm only responsible for 25% of the time.
-Shower every single day. I wouldn't really like to go into detail as to why this is listed as a 'goal' as opposed to sheer human nature to shower everyday.
-Take better care of myself. Of course this is sort of a catch-all bullet point on a list of otherwise specific goals, but it should be included nonetheless. Eating better, exercising, taking better care of my hygiene (how embarrassing for me..), putting more effort into my relationships, are all things that I need to address.
-Wear a different pair of shoes every day. I have tons of pairs of shoes, but I only really wear 2 or possibly 3 ever, and mostly for month-long periods. Usually to be accompanied by the same pair of jeans, and my black hoody. I believe this is what they call 'a rut'.


I'm sure I could think of more, and if I do, I'll post them, if only to keep myself accountable.

Just give me all the bacon and eggs you have

Everybody's always trying to get me to blog, and I always say the same thing when the ridiculous amount of sassing piles up- I blog when I choose to, not because people want me to. That's the only way I ever enjoy it. I'm not blogging because it's my job, I do it because I want to when I want to. I absolutely do not care whether you're happy with how often/not often I update.

My niece, Laney Fae was born since I last posted. I've been able to spend a fair amount of time with her, considering I'm at school most of the time. She's an adorable little thing. She looks just like my brother. Everyone is pretty excited to have her here.

This isn't the best photo. I haven't been able to get good photos on my phone of her.

Also, I turned 21 a few weeks ago. I'd be lying if I didn't say that I truly appreciate being able to order alcohol in a restaurant if I choose, and be able to buy it for myself. I have a bottle of Merlot in my pantry right now. It shall be delicious.

And for my birthday, a certain individual who shall remain nameless, sent me 21 red roses over three days at school, for my birthday, as well as other incredibly awesome gifts. Whoever this person is, they sound awesome, right?

Again, this isn't a very good picture, but it's the best one I have. They're all dead now, of course. I think it would be a little morbid to post pictures of 21 dead roses.

no dungeonmaster worth his weight in geldings goes anywhere without his 20 sided die

Ugh, y'all, I've been so obnoxiously proud/obsessed with myself this week and my healthy eating. Having a kitchenette is what my life has been missing. Having a very small crock pot is what my life has been missing. Apparently my life has been missing many things, which are now found. Going back to my days of veganism/vegetarianism (which have not been forgotten, just put on hold, working my way back there) and capitalizing on my recent purchase of a 10 dollar crock pot from target I've been feeding myself this week from one meal for dinner. Supplementing with Costco purchases (a place I frickin love more than life itself) I've gotten groceries from the co-op this week (produce, sale grocery items) on the cheaps and have been, as previously stated, obnoxiously proud of myself to say the least. I find when I'm at school and I have a more selective crop of foods to work with, I'm much more innovative. Which makes me more nutritious. But this weekend I plan to eat pizza. And ice cream. Which is whatevs, it somewhat negates the healthiness of this week, but baby steps, my friends.

These Days

Ugh, having a blog is liek, hard work y'allz. I usually only update when I'm depressed, or bored, or being productive, or extremely happy, which I have been all of those at some point or another this summer, but I don't ever update when I'm at home. All the people who read this are home and I see them most any day anyways.

few things:

-I'm moved into my apartment

-I started classes, whatevs

-I need to stop forgetting that I hate tomatoes, and buying them and cooking them in things, and then just picking them out anyway. Unless it's pasta. Icks.

-Like, a whole lot of other stuff that I'm not going to get into on my public blog. But I've been busy this summer.

It's alright it's alright it's alright

At this time last year, I was home, I had served jury duty, I was done with my freshman year of College, I was so happy to be home in my city, and I didn't have a job.

Now, I'm done with Sophomore year, which was arguably worse in terms of having classes that I really hated, but 20 times better socially. I will forever love my awesome roommate, who I won't be living with again in the near future, but we'll still hang out all the time. I didn't serve jury duty this summer, but looking back, jury duty is awesome, people. I'm happy to be home, but I still miss Menomonie, and...people. Which I never thought I'd say. And I have a job.

he left the bloodstains on the carpet

There's like...a lot of days in April. I don't think I'm going to keep going with the 'I Loves' just because I missed so many days. But I did love a lot of things, and still do.

I'll just make a non-descript list of things I love to even things out:

I love diet pop, I love Michael Scott, I love Twitter, I love tumblr, I love David Bowie, I love magazines, I love my parents, I love my cabin, I love riding my bike in the summer, I love my school chums, I love my home chums, I love my phone when it works, I love The Mighty Boosh, and I love my novelty t-shirts.

come on let your colors burst

And this one is a total contradiction to my last post:

32. I love the Christmas-Easter cheesy potatoes.

They were my favorite food growing up. They're really yummy, and I was excited to be able to eat them on Easter, although it took me awhile to work up the courage to eat dairy. I'm going to try to craft a vegan version this summer. We'll see how that turns out..

Who Dat Ninja?

Ugh, I know that I'M the one who set out expectations for this month, but things got away from me, as they often do. It could often be considered a good thing if I'm not blogging, because that means I'm of good mental health. Which I have been these past few weeks. Extremely good mental health.

31. I think my thing for this day was I Love Being Vegan?

This was the day before Easter, and I'm the type of person who does Lent all the way until Easter, so it was my last day of veganism. Although I can tell you that I've eaten some animal products since Lent has been over, I really really enjoyed veganism. I'll probably end up doing it for the rest of my life at some point. I know it's a selfish and lazy attitude to be like "I'll get around to doing it at some point, but it's not practical right now." It's actually quite practical, all the time, but I think in order to not drive myself crazy, I'm going to loosen up a little bit at least while I'm still not an official grown-up.

The amount of crap give Vegan diets is just so ridiculous and unjust. Have these people ever TRIED living vegan? It's wonderful, and you feel so much better all the time (you obviously have to be smart about it), but people cry if you take away their daily cheeseburger. People can act so entitled to eating animal products and it's just so backwards.

My poor parents are going to have to suffer through their youngest daughters "enlightened socially conscious phase" this summer. But they'll eat black bean burgers if it kills them.

Last night I dreamt somebody loved me

30. I love my cat.

He can be a total jerk sometimes, and really annoying, and he has really sharp claws, and he can be standoffish, and he kills squirrels a lot in the summer, but he's really the best cat ever. I think after that kind of description, only my sister and I could still love him as much as we do.

here in my car

29. I love being home.

I didn't post because I was home. And I was distracted. And I didn't really feel like it. But I really love being home. Mostly it's just associated with the feeling of not having any responsibilities, and sleep. Lots of sleep. Also, my house is bigger than my dorm room. Which is always a plus, I guess..