Life doesn't suck. But sometimes it sure feels like it. I'm bummed out about many things right now. Mostly things that were once in my control, and I have since let them go beyond my control. This is not completely about procrastination, this is also about dedication. I know that it's a horrible attitude to have towards things, but if I don't want to do something, I don't really give it my all. That happens a lot. To a lot of people. But I feel that that's a horrible attitude. However it's hard to reconcile those feelings when things just aren't right and there's a perfect storm of suck in your life. This probably seems kind of cryptic, but that's about as descriptive as I want to get.
I just will say that it's so easy to let things slip so slightly beyond the grasp of my control.
Well, I shouldn't say that. I have control over everything, but everything just seems more overwhelming and daunting.
I wouldn't read too much into this. My idea of being stressed out is not having enough time to sit around on my lazy ass and not do anything. I'm not saying that I shouldn't actually care about the things I'm stressing about right now, but I certainly need to stop acting like it's the end of the world. I need to find my happy medium between that and my nonchalance.
In other news...
It was spring break last week. I think that's probably why being at school right now sucks so much. It's a teaser of how life is like at home. I had just enough time to get comfortable. I had good times with the cat, friends, and family. Was (generally) well fed, slept (generally) well, and watched a lot of criminal minds. Which I stopped watching because of increased paranoia, but then I missed the characters too much.
