Your life depends on it

I've never cried because I've felt so embarrassed and disappointing; and maybe it's the fact that I haven't slept since Monday night, and I know I won't be able to sleep again until Thursday night, and won't get the break I thought I would for weeks now. I am so embarrassed by my cockiness, and my feeling invincible; and when I was brought back down to earth, even though I agree with the criticism of myself, I privately couldn't handle it.

My first 3d project was an utter failure. An utter and complete failure. This doesn't mean that I got a failing grade, I'm literally doing the entire thing over because what I've just "finished" is probably the worst thing I've ever made, and I can't believe I made it in college, and not, say, 4th grade. The worst part is, my professor publicly agreed, and was the first one to bring it up. He said that he was proud that I could handle that kind of criticism, and I was surprised myself, but then I felt like crying. Partly because he embarrassed me (he had every right) but because I embarrassed myself, and we all know that's totally worse, because that's all on you.

I don't think anyone could be more disappointed in me more than I am in myself right now. I came back to my dorm room and cried, and as I said, maybe it's because I haven't had any sleep since monday night (and now my most previous all-nighter was in vain), but I couldn't handle the thought that I'd failed for the first time in college. As I said, this has nothing to do with grades, as I get to re-do the entire project, but I failed my abilities, and I know I could do so much better.