Get with it.

I think this is what every fridge should look like. Just saying.

My wife has moved to Jersey, so mum is not the word.

I didn't die, I just haven't really been in the blogging mood. And don't mistake me- it's not like I've been busy or anything. In fact, it's just that.

As much as I looked forward to this summer, I should have known that I would be bored most of the time. Maybe it's because I assumed I would have a job-- and I will be the first to admit that I haven't tried terribly hard to GET a job, just saying-- and I'm not going on any trips or anything. And of course, one best friend is 1/3 of the way through her 6-week european vacation, another best friend is housesitting in a different part of town, which I didn't even know about until about a week before it happened (and she will adamantly tell you that she told me about it ages ago, but that is a big fat lie) as well as has a job. And other best friend also has a job, but she lives fairly close, so we've actually gotten to hang out. Sister Caroline never wants to hang out, and when she does, she always complains about driving and having to do other things, which are usually going out with people she sees every day. And she won't see Sex and the City with me, except, she invited me begrudgingly to go see it with her and her friend. Sister Emily just got done with school last week, and we hung out yesterday, but her best friend and roommate is getting married in less than a month, and is moving to China immediately after, not to mention she has 6 months to plan her own wedding. My friends from school don't live that close to me, and one of them is going to Europe for a month soon anyway, so that puts off our camping plans that we had until the tail end of the summer.

I'm not trying to have a public pity party, trying to get all sorts of sympathy from people, and I have friends, and it's not like I'm some pathetic hermit, but I don't know, I guess I feel a little lonely right now? Maybe this is my passive way of saying "feel bad for me, everyone I know is being a jerk right now" or something like that. I think I do that kind of thing all the time, whether I realize it or not. I think a lot of people do. It's like fishing for compliments. Although, a lot of the time, people realize that they're doing it. I think I have a sort of a villainous personality, where I seem sympathetic, but I prey on people's sympathies to get what I want. And maybe sub-consciously I admit that so people will tell me it's not true. But I think it probably is a little bit. And all of this business isn't really relevant to the "lonely" think, but I found a sorta segue, so I took it.

It's just that I've had too much me time lately I think, which I usually love, but I think I drive myself crazy. I have too much time to analyze things in my life. I usually think a lot about philosophy in my head, and I how I choose to live, and whether I think it's the right way, or whether I think I should be doing something differently, or how exactly I view the world. It's dangerous to think to much about that kind of thing. But I guess if I thought enough about that statement, I would label it as an imperfect philosophy.

But I guess I'm just saying, hang out with me. Ugh.